I have some free time now, really don't wanna waste it
Did some driving tests online with my father. He got more right answers than I would have expected, considering the dodgy language used in them.>>3
If you don't mind me asking, how's your friend doing? Heart brakes are painful for anyone, but bottling it up can be even more painful.
Sadly, I can't actually tell because he hasn't talked about his problem since my last post. He seems to only want to talk about it when its too much for him to deal with alone.
I see. Sounds a little similar to myself. I ended up on 8ch at the first large migration.
And was on /kind/ soon thereafter. I even got it's first get. It was an absolute shitpost of a get but better that than /sp/eee.
I went thru different periods of quitting image boards. Not that I deliberately quit, just that I'm old and life is getting busier and I don't watch new anime so I don't have much to talk to anyone about.
I don't post anywhere anymore except once or twice a week on a really tiny circle jerk board on a relatively unknown image board website. And there I don't have much to say.
Namefags get gay for each other over time and it just gets weirdly lewd and I don't want that tbh. >4-5 people
Honestly that's probably as busy 8/kind/ was before that site died. So it's good to see the few anons stuck to it.
I have contradictory feelings about /kind/ as I see it as a kind space to /improve/. But if you improve and go out into the world.. You are gonna be on the board less. Maybe even leave it.
So I like it. But it just feels odd. It's also odd to see some old posts saved and posted here in the other thread. One of my old posts cheered me up
I'm not sure how long this iteration will last, but I have found this place again at last. If its even for a fleeting moment, this is fine.
My whole body hurts, as if the struggle to exist in physical space is taking a toll on my very being. I'll try to get some sleep, and hope that this too, shall pass.
Still, my pain is lessened - for 50 get is mine.
Update: The computer components I ended up getting were not what I expected, I thought I'd get an ASUS motherboard, got an AsRock instead.
Will see if I can get a refund
nice dubs, but that's unfortunate
It's ok, if everything goes as I expect it, I'd be able to get the same stuff with 8 gigs of ram for a small extra from another store.
Good works take their time to get done
I hope you get better.
Note: Meds don't get rid of autistic anger
Sometimes it doesn't feel like I'm doing my best
I'm super confused right now. I'm at a sort of impasse, in that no path forward seems worthwhile. I can't continue as I am now, as that will probably end with my death. I suppose I just don't have anything to live for at the moment; I am simply existing.
Are you lonely? Family, friends and other relationships are what typically provide purpose for people.
>>161>Are you lonely?
I guess so. I just have a hard time caring about others when I always seem to get disappointed or hurt by them. If not that, I just get annoyed with them.
I'm a bit hard to please, if I'm going to be honest.
I also felt that way when I was younger, but with time and a different outlook you can build up tolerance for people. Now I see people as a medicine that might be bitter or cause some unwanted effect but is overall better for my wellbeing. Definitely better than dying at least.
I'm not even trying to learn anything. I'm just not interested in anything at the moment. Really, I should be looking for a job right now.>>164
I would like to say I can tolerate people. I don't really have any issues talking to them and I can make friends pretty easy. It's more of the issue that I don't have much in common with other people, or rather, I don't really have any genuine desire to be their friend.
I live in the middle of nowhere though, so there really isn't much variety around here.
I'm pretty saddened by the situations at hand, I feel like a hobo at this point. I have a grudge with how most boards are behaving now and can't bear being in them anymore. Maybe I became a softie, but I don't want to bother with metadrama, or meaningless gatekeeping where it isn't called for, or stuff that just completely breaks the mood of the board. Just look at /comfy/ getting into rousing due to religion or how anger is "good for you". You can't delete that without creating some uproar and if you leave it the mood of the board is broken.
I've been living off happenings to be with some people together now, Corona-chan was the last one that made me feel like home. Seeing all the OC and stuff develop there was amazing and truly once in a lifetime event, but you can't milk a happening forever without realizing you're not even invested in it now and it's just a circlejerk with the same three guys now.
I've been learning drawing due to this, the stuff that happen in Q1 of this year made me lose my head, I want to make myself lose my head on my own and not depend on others. But even then, this would probably take ages to pull off properly.
I find bad that the situation is so bad I can only browse /kind/ and another /kind/ themed board now. I think Corona made me realize about a lot of stuff, but at the same time made some other stuff unbearable. I feel alone.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7H73jpgX3U
People are idiots, and any sort of group is only as good as it's weakest member; more so with anonymous imageboards. Just appreciate the good times while you can anon. That's all a person can really do.
I was productive today! Despite getting very little sleep and having a mild hangover, I cleaned a large portion of my garage. I only did it because I'm supposed to be hosting a little get-together tomorrow night. Hopefully it won't be awful, but the guests so far have very little chemistry.
Yeah, long term of inertia can make you think negatively and slowly spiral down.
If you're able to take strolls from time to time to clear your mind.
If you have a hobby that will help you even more!
All I can tell you about /comfy/ is that eberrything is okay.
Every Day I’ve been walking about two times a day around a miles worth per walk. It feels nice afterwards just sitting down staring at the ceiling fan.
Going to go grocery shopping today. The main things I need to get is cabbage, milk and ham. Cabbage for dinner tonight, milk for coffee/protein shakes and ham to have on salad wraps.
I feel sad
I don't belong anywhere
I feel exactly the same anon
I feel exactly the same
You aren't alone in feeling alone friends.
It seems it was all a pretty big waste of effort sadly. Things didn't work out as planned, but hey, at least I won't have to feel ashamed of my filth anymore.
much obliged, friend>>314
it will take a while, but I really want to see things go for the better.
Even when the biggest darkness surround us, I still want to read the book and see what our true selves can fully do.
My PS2's laser finally died. It's extremely inconvienient because I'll have to find a way to transfer my save files to PC :(
I had one of those days where I don't get out of bed. Sore ankles from running, sore torso from pushups. I slept for 12 hours and still didn't want to get up. Now it's midnight and I ought to go to sleep…>>347>They…browse Reddit>Am I in the wrong for feeling this way?
Not in the slightest. Become a stable rock in that kids life when they're born, because it doesn't seem like their parents will be.
Thanks friends. Normally I'll give people the benefit of the doubt in hopes that they'll do the right thing or make necessary changes, but this is a human's upbringing, and I know how bad it can be to be neglected by parents.
I just have a really big soft spot for kids in general.
My friend, be the best Uncle as you can. It might not be amazing but hey, maybe they could take after you and they could be a hero.
If I can improve a kid's life, even just a little, that's enough of a reward for me. That's why I want to study to become a teacher.
A noble reason to get into a noble profession. I hope the best for you and your niece/nephew.
Why is it that everytime I talk to women it only ever ends up causing me pain? Why do I continue to make the same mistake?
Maybe I should just stick with being alone. It's easier that way.
and no that pic isn't mine
I've been feeling kinda down the past few days, and have been thinking about why I can't really develop strong friendships with others. I've come to the conclusion that it's just some trust issues, since I can't really express how I actually feel about things. I would rather act cold and distant to everyone because expressing things has never really had a real benefit for me. At best I'm met with indifference, at worst I get abandoned. I just wish I could meet someone that would give me a reason to trust other people again. So that I could learn that people really aren't so bad.
An experience earlier tonight has me thinking about that sort of thing.
I hung out with some dudes in a streamchat. It was great fun and we were there for hours talking and watching youtube videos. At the end, they exchanged steam IDs and agreed that friends are in short supply these days. I realized then that I hadn't actually been "hanging out" with them in the same way that they were hanging out with each other; I was shitposting in the chat and participating in some sense, but in another sense I simply was not there.
Ten years ago something similar happened, except in that instance I was
present in a personal way. A bunch of people had so much fun in a pseudonymous twitchchat that we exchanged twitter handles. The last friend I had made from that stopped replying to my emails a year ago, I guess because I revealed too much of my power level. I was there
for a moment too long, treating him like a real person, and talking about something that actually mattered for once.
At the same time, I didn't care too much that he decided to do that. I figured if I'm expendable, so is he. Because that's how things work, now: you can afford to drop people for trivial reasons, as in the internet age there are seemingly a million replacements for every lost friend. Yet the calculus somehow works out to be the opposite: everyone has more "friends" but is lonelier.
Characters in American Psycho are as anonymous as Anons: nobody knows anybody elses' name, and even though they know each other in person, they remain as ciphers. None have anything about them that's really worth knowing. They're spiritually poor and are only further impoverished by their experiences. Their thoughts and inner-worlds are limited to decadence and instant gratification, and maybe the gnawing sense that something has gone terribly wrong. This, too, seems increasingly to be the world we live in.
The cure for these problems might simply be to articulate them to each other. We're falling into particular technological, postmodern traps, and we don't need to. We can open up in an intelligent way, knowing the weaknesses and blind spots of our interlocutors. Most of the people we try to engage might not be there
, but that is ok. Circumstances demand that those of us who want to go back to having actual human relationships instead of SMSes and tinder hookups need to play the "numbers game" like PUAs.
The medium is the message.
This is why IM is horrible. It's more about the rapidness of the response rather than the thoughtfulness behind it. It also rewards half-presence instead undivided attention, arguably something that makes for a more thoughtful friendship.
I've been feeling a little down about friends earlier too. It seems like there's never a nice balance - or that people have more fulfilling lives. I've surfed through many IRCs, boards, chat-roulettes - never do I find that sense of, well, maybe we can learn to cherish each other. People take others for granted, nor do they have much of a concern of what is possible.
Frankly I concluded that friends are no longer possible, or something along those lines.
It's easy to cling to friendships to supplicant the problems of how your life moves forward. Earlier I went on a meandering night walk, drinking milk from a 7/11. Here's one of the songs I was listening to, if you're curious: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_K-isImH-jc
It's easy to feel so small when you see how empty the streets are and how strong the system is that churns the day forward. It's hard to come to terms with how small you are, or empty if you don't have goals. Aimless.
It's unaesthetic to seek friends the sake of it, when you're aimless. Organic friendships are very hard to come by, though. Relating to people as if they're whole instead of the interests we have in common feels so brittle, too. Maybe you don't need friends anymore as long as you have a goal.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts friends.
Yeah, it's impossible to have lasting friendships through IM. Through IM, you can't build the same kinds of experiences with others that you could with friends you hang out in person with.
Even though I might not be very close with anybody, I still have friends, and I still have a good time with them. Most of them are kind of lame, but you just have to try and make the most of it.
I don't know how old you anons are, or the situation you find yourself in, but you should try and find a friend if you can.
I understand that it's easier said than done, but don't give up on the people around you. Sure, people suck, but nobody is asking you to be their best friend. Next time someone expresses and interest in you, or you see someone mildy interesting, get some lunch with them, and if it goes well, do it again another time.
Anything is better than being alone.
>>484>Anything is better than being alone.
I think that's worth a challenge.
Friends sure are nice to have.
What gets me down about it is what you've said, how it feels a little lame.
It feels lame because it's the same things. It's nice to share an experience.
And it gets old to share that same experience over a lifetime.
When you're alone, you can confront that lameness. Otherwise you settle into that docile state with everyone around you, comforting yourself. "Everyone else is doing it, why not me?"
And yet, I've found, that "everyone" will soon appear far away. Then they'll be gone, and you're in the exact same position again. It's only up to you whether to rectify it, or to find more bodies to hide in before the next migration.
That's been my experience at least. I do think there are friends out there that would be very rewarding to be with. Certainly, and when that time comes I can only hope that there is a warmth in the air, that there are things to share. Just stupid dumb things to reconvene on.
Your best friend is yourself, and there's no need to give more to people you don't consider all that great.
I am by no means advocating being an island unto yourself.
It's important to figure out who is worth spending the finite time with.https://dcgross.com/the-frequently-overlooked-path-to-happiness/
I feel similar, and whenever I try to be more open and social I end feeling ashamed of myself for reasons I don't understand.
It doesn't help that I can't find people I have things in common with. One of the people I used to communicate with the most ended up cutting off contact with me because of our differences in beliefs.
What I've found is that it's difficult to sustain long-term goals in a personal vacuum. My fitness goals are on track, because staying fit is immediately enjoyable. I'm the gokuposter in the /fit/ thread.
But motivation and the ability to invest serious effort into things without an immediate payoff requires, at a minimum, faith that the future will be a place worth living in. And it's hard to have that when things have gone full kali-yuga, as has been the case this year.
That said, the only reason I'm thinking about this subject at all now is that there have been a lot of positive signs lately that there's at least some of the population wants to live on as actualized human beings.
Yeah, I guess you aren't wrong. Time to yourself is important so you can come to a better understanding of yourself, and yes, it is best to find comfort in yourself because you aren't guaranteed to find anyone to truly be comfortable with. On the other hand, some things just aren't possible to achieve on your own, so it's important to find reliable people, even if they aren't all you would hope they would be.
I guess I'm sort of straying from the point though. There is no objectively right path, regardless.
Oh /kind/, hopefully soon we will all reach a new stage in our lives where we can find purpose in our actions. Hopefully one day, we can win.
I got out of bed when I woke up instead of languishing. I got a cup of green tea while checking my email, and then instead of shitposting for some number of hours, I went to the park to challenge… THE RAVINE! A 30m deep hill. I can't sprint all the way up yet, but the attempts are their own reward. It's like pulling the ripcord on a lawnmower. It gets me started. I'm fatigued momentarily and can't stop wim hof breathing for 10 minutes straight, but then I'm warmed up and ready to sprint again after that, and the feeling lingers all day. The feeling itself is a kind of purpose; it makes every avenue of endeavor more interesting.
Took a cold shower, did some laundry, cleaned my bedroom, made a wholesome breakfast, and ate my leftover kale smoothie from yesterday. Read a chapter of Julius Evola's Ride the Tiger. I'm not a huge fan of Evola, but his oeuvre is a giant rejection of nihilistic materialism.
Meditated, which has been next to impossible for the last several months. I'm not sure why; I've just had no focus, and I suppose no sense of the future. So I set the timer down from 20 minutes, to five minutes, and resolved to keep my eyes shut and count my breaths and try not to get too distracted until the time is up. And that worked. That's a start, at least, even if for some reason I have to start back from square one. When well-practiced, this form of ascesis quells the urgings of the lower self to engage in unworthy behaviors, but I'm not there yet.
I also figured out how to transcode mp4s to webms with a 5:1 recompression ratio, and very little quality loss. S'cool.
Also kicked ass at work but I think I'm at the character limit.
Aw, that's pretty rough. I mean, as long as you get some sort of enjoyment out of it, I guess it's not too bad. I'd recommend picking up another smaller hobby, so you don't end up burning yourself out.
Sometimes I don't feel like posting on /kind/ because I feel like I'm too aggresive for it or that I feel it would fit better somewhere else.
It's not from embarrassment I delete stuff, baka.
I like doing it, that's not the issue. And if I got bored of it, there are plenty of other things that I like to do. My problem is that it feels like they are not leading anywhere. It feels like since I have started working, I have been standing still. There's nothing to strive for.
But this is probably more fit for a mopey thread.
Today's bloggorhea: I've recently learned enough Japanese to read that image without looking anything up. I guess I can't say watching GCCX never taught me anything— that's where I learned how "jigoku" is written. I'm pretty chuffed, no joke.>>582
This is what's sometimes called "the end of history." There seems to be nothing left to do but live out our lives consuming as much as we can, for as long as possible. I feel like we've been blindered to thinking sanely about the way we spend our lives. It's a cliché to say that there's more to life than money, but it's somehow still shocking when it turns out any amount of wealth earned might not even amount to subsistence on a spiritual level.
need more hobbies. We already have too many diversions and ways of wiling away the years. We need things that matter down to our marrow.
I got a desk.
I like it even though it’s a little too big for my comfort but I like it.
I for one have never been a fan of forced comfy. That said, I never liked 8/kind/ all the much. This place has potential.
Just went for a 6k run. I don't know what it is about hill-climbing, but I get back and start vibing on boomer rock and metal covers of videogame music, and eating eggs on toast like it's the best thing ever. Gotta go fast
my dudes. Sonic knew the secret of life all along.
Also, I saw a little girl on a bike, pedaling furiously to maintain a jogging pace because she was in the wrong gear. It was the cutest. :3And RIP Kurt Hennig, I guess. ;_;7>>613>I have poisonous thoughts constantly swirling around in my head
Understandable; one of the horrors of the modern world is in how efficaceously it has demoralized and turned us against ourselves, en masse. This is maybe the biggest problem a person can face, because it engenders a victim mentality.>>641>if we think we found a purpose, how do we know it's not a lie
If you're lying to yourself, who is the deceiver, and who the deceived?
There is no true purpose in life. Only you can decide on why you choose to live. In other words, do what you can to get what you want, even if it's something extremely basic.
We have been created only as servants to God. Some people choose instead to serve their own desires, or money, or fame, or what have you. Don't be like them because they are truly losers. Read the Qur'an, it might just change your life.
I believe that each of us is an emanation of the Absolute experiencing itself through many lifetimes, and our goal should be to start identifying more with our ultimate origins and less with the temporary characters we're playing in the here and now. Beyond that, I think it's up to us to discover our true will for this lifetime and allow others the same courtesy to follow their own path.
I miss Lizchan.
Morning kind. No idea what I'm going to do today.
What games do you play? Maybe we can be friends.
I am too embarrassed to say. Every multiplayer game that I could list would be a 'normie' game.
I started watching Non Non Biyori this weekend (got both seasons on blu-ray), and my face started to hurt. Then I realized I had this huge grin on my face without even noticing.
You have absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about.
That’s the reason I watch Yuruyuri every few days.
Already settled up the new components for my computer but dear god does my back hurt from mingling with everything yesterday
Gochiusa has the same effect on me, I can't wait for season 3.
How was it like? Please tell me anything that you remember.
I don't think I've been quite so lonely as I feel tonight. Normally I find the silence comforting, but right now, I can't help but think about the fact that there are people out there right now, having a great time with others, and how I haven't had that in a very long time. Even if I remove everyone, I'll still feel pain.
I'm so tired, /kind/. I'm so tired of everything. Its as if reality is constantly trying to keep me broke. My UPS died on me while I'm trying to ration my food. I'll miss all these comfy imageboards. I don't want to face another day. I can't. I just can't. I'm so tired.
Why do you need a UPS my friend? Maybe for now you could use a cheaper computer just meant for internet.
I'll never not want to kill myself, but I don't have anything against others really.
Haven't posted in a while. Hello /kind/, I'm not up to too much. I've just been practicing Spanish and Italian a bit, I picked up smoking again which is very not-good. I think this will be the fifth unsuccessful attempt at quitting.
I'm just listening to GhibliJazz on Youtube while doing internet stuff. I plan on continuing to play Dragon Question XI after I finish lunch, un sándwich de pescado con sal y salsa de tomate fish sandwich with salt and tomato sauce.
I've been feeling a little bit better mentally lately, which is nice.
I just had my birthday recently, that was pretty fun!
I hadn't seen any friends for a few weeks before that, so it was nice to have human contact. It's still exhausting, but it's times like those that remind me that things aren't that bad yet. That I still have a lot to lose.
Happy belated birthday mate. Hope it was a good one.>>962
That's okay, not every day needs to be productive.
This month I'm doing daily morning exercises again
Good work mate, proud of you. I've been struggling to try to go to the gym but will try to start tomorrow.
I didn't start going to the gym yet.
I'm thinking about joining the military to get my shit sorted and force myself to improve while I'm still young. I dunno what else I could really do. It seems like the best path to take at this point.
I live in a shithole country and the power grid isn't exactly reliable, and using the mains directly is probably dangerous for a PC.
I live in the Midwestern US, and the power will sometimes flicker when there's a storm wiping out my incognito tabs.
I made a beef and barley stew in my slow cooker. It was kind of bland so I added some white miso paste since I read online that can help a bland stew. It tastes a bit better, wish I had a can of tomatoes to add to it.
Is this for sadblogging, too? If not I apologize for the following: looking at very pretty 3D today and over the past few days made me so nearly teary-eyed from tfwnogf that I had to switch my desktop wallpapers to shuffle 2D instead and then I turned off my numerous cosplayer photo feeds.
Just upgraded my internet to 100 Mbs. Bad news is that it's 5g so I guess my balls will be fried later on.
>>1192>Just upgraded my internet to 100 Mbs
Jealous of that 100Mbs! Sometimes it seems like my connection might as well be dialup>5g so I guess my balls will be fried later on
I think as long as your not sitting directly on the phone or modem or whatever, you'll be OK
I went shopping today. Main things I bought was feta cheese and kalamata olives for salad, also got some strawberries, muesli bars and some other stuff.
I can't play your video, but good luck with your game, anon! Will you post it here when it's finished?
Also, is the mp4 not playing because your browser can't decode it?
I went to my friend's house today on my bike and I helped him work on his Miata. It was pretty nice and I had dinner there as well before going home.
Also it's really smoky outside because there's a fire. And it's a record heatwave too but I feel fine.>>1134
Yeah that just sounds like a healthy choice in general
says it's a corrupt file
I see! Thanks for the heads-up. I should probably be doing webbums anyway.
I dunno what you mean, exactly.
It's been a meme for the last few decades that young adults seem to be under a lot of stress for some reason. It was something they had to "teach" us about in school, in the '90s, and it's probably a lot more ridiculous now. Kind of like infomercials for the mere fact of existence. "Whatever you do, don't freak out and kill yourself, please!"
There's an apparent need to tell you that, and if the solution is not to fix the problem but instead to tell everyone "drug are bad, mmkay. You shouldn't do drugs even though life is driving you nuts and you need an escape" then of course people will go a little nuts.
I can't imagine anyone not
feeling a little unhinged these days, in particular. Things are absurd, and most of the people pointing out how absurd things are seem also to want everyone to freak out about how everyone is freaking out. Basically just telling people to be more scared about how scared everyone is.
So yeah, you're not alone. Most people probably feel that way, at least a little, for one reason or another.
I did more mean something like >>1383
this, except doing dumb things are followed by either anger or a panic attack about said dumb thing then followed by gut-busting knee slapping laughter of how dumb said thing was, then transforming into falling asleep crying in a ball either in bed or in a chair.
Had some steamed veggies with brown rice and mixed some hoisin sauce in with it. Tasty pretty nice.
Windows makes me lazy, but linux is broken and can't do anything on it.
Such a troublesome dilemma.
I'm pretty tired at this point. I've just had an 8 hour flight after playing guitar hero with friends for 12 hours prior to that. Hopefully the next few days will be good.
>>1442>playing guitar hero with friends for 12 hours
Clone Hero? What tracks?
Nah, we got wireless 360 drums the day before, so we didn't have an adapter to use em on PC. Otherwise we would've.
Instead we played Guitar Hero: Warriors of Rock, and pretty much marathoned it, with quite a few breaks to play other similar games, or trying some games that you could theoretically play with the guitar controller.
Cussing is a crutch used in place of well-formed, grown-up articulation. You should aim, ultimately, to speak in a way that is less spicy but more substantial rather than trying to excise the bad habit without filling the vacuum. As a stopgap, try replacing offending words with bowdlerized versions like "hecking" and "bullcorn".
It's also sobering to remember how vulgarity reflects on you. I was on the bus once upon a time, and saw a guy through the window. Bad posture, no physique, shabby clothes, unshaven. I immediately thought "wow, what a fucking loser." Then I looked at myself and was like "oh wait, I'm pretty much the same way."
It hit me like a ton of bricks that that was, in fact, how I had been presenting myself to the world. Crude, apathetic trash. That was all the persuasion I needed to change everything.>>1430
This was a good idea! I've had more time to get work done, and accumulated less negativity before starting the day. The meditation is itself a countermeasure for the negativity I did accumulate.>>1440
Sad but true. Makes me want to try Kolibrios or Haiku or something. Which is pointless because these alternatives won't be any better, but still.
The thought crossed my mind today to make a board for failed normalfriends. From the few times I've seen them mentioned it looks like a lot of people really hate them so I thought they maybe they could use a board to call home. I'm not sure what I would call it, /failnorm/ is the best name I can think of but I feel like that's too long. I'm also not entirely optimistic it would go well since the people that would populate it still have some amount of normalfriend in them so it might be filled with bad posts if it wouldn't just be empty entirely.
I've seen people call /kind/ the board where failednormalfriends go to not get bullied anymore.
How exactly is "failed normalfriend" defined? To me it's a person who is in denial about being a weirdo and still clings to normality, but I think I've seen people using it in the exact opposite way.
>>1506>You can usually see them shitting up boards with crybaby posts about girl problems.
Okay, that's how I used to use the phrase. I went to /r9k/ a lot years ago and stopped going when the catalog got clogged up with those kinds of relationship threads.
Failed norms would be cyborgs. The board would be a pit of cancer in today's climate.
I'm glad to hear that, friend.
You're awakening something deep in my soul that wasn't there before, am I becoming an S?>>1663
Also computer boots up but the monitor gives nothing, will continue tomorrow
I'm glad I don't have girl problems. The only real obstacle for me is myself.
>>1747>I'm starting to feel melancholic
Huh, melancholy is a common thing for me. I like to say that I'm "feeling blue" when I have it.
I'm a lot less prone to depression than I was as a teenager but still feel melancholic around this time of year. It could almost be described as a sense of dread.
I just want to be loved. However, I'm aware that I am something that should not be. The days go by, and each day brings me closer to final oblivion. I probably wont kill myself - too much of a coward, haha.
I was comfy in bed until my sister and her boyfriend started fucking loudly in the next room. I hate living with other people damnit. Why can't people just be considerate of others around them?
Going to save up for a trip overseas sometime next year. I've saved up $3,000 so far from the extra government gibs during la 'rona. Going to go mega scab mode and try saving up the same amount for around this time next year and see where that leaves me for the trip.
No idea where I'm going to visit though, I just need to get away from my life in this town and ideally out of Australia for a bit. I am learning German and Spanish, so German and Spanish speaking countries would be a good choice I suppose. The plan is still in the beginning phase though.
Germany seems pretty cool. I'd like to visit Bamburg, since that's where my great-grandmother's from. It's a beautiful country so long as you stay away from major cities, as far as I'm aware anyway.
I would love to go to Korea when I’m fluent because my parent’s are from there, it’s just don’t like it’s owned by the Chaebols.
I feel so lonely, I wish I had a friend to hang out with
Shaved my head and used some honey and milk body wash stuff I found in the shower on it. Smells nice and my head feels smooth.
ate a banana
I had an absolutely horrible experience today. My car's at a bodyshop right now because I let someone borrow it and they dinged it up a bit. The shop let me borrow a car while they work on my car. The only thing available was a 2019 mustang. I didn't think it'd be so bad, but it actually is really bad. I've driven some shitty vehicles, but this one takes the cake.
Don't worry. They just want to know you stuck it out and finished school. The degree itself isn't so important in undergraduate. If the company is worth it's salt, they will train you themselves in what they want from you so don't worry about it Anon. Be prepared to work an internship when you graduate however.
Watched the first episode of Tonikaku Kawaii… I just want to experience love… or die…
If you're falling behind already just quit and learn coding at home.
Thanks for mentioning that, I didn't know about it. It's cute, I hope they will do a good job with it.>>2310
My relationship with God is what gives me peace Anon.
Don't give up friend.
Despite the lockdowns, its kinda like its become more difficult as of late to find good outlets or interesting interactive sites online. Someone said that the 2020's would bring a 90's revival, so things like personal sites and curated feeds and discovery elements like web rings might become more prominent again. It might be interesting if there be some sites which were less one way street (as in here's my content like it or not) and more like interactive for the user of the site to leave some sign of them having been there other than just commenting. Maybe some kinda game element in which different color pieces from each visitor making up a big whole, but this is just an idea. It might just be that we need something to better discover new things online other than looking stuff up, because looking up stuff requires you to know somewhat what you're looking for by written description and sometimes one's description isn't adequate enough to bring a good satisfying result.
How much does weight gain and the succeeding overweightness/obesity actually bother women who wanted a child and likes that child? Is it bothersome and even grueling, an unfortunate side effect, a duty as a mother, or do they not care at all? What about if their breasts go flabby from breastfeeding?
Nobody likes gaining weight. It depends on the woman I guess. If she used to lead an active life before, it'll probably bother her a lot, otherwise it probably sucks but isn't that big of a deal. I imagine single mothers are more bothered by it, since it reduces their chances of finding a partner along with their kid.
Basically, it depends on the woman. They aren't all the same, you know.
Struggling with intense depression because this is the fifth time I've failed my attempt to get higher education. I've often joked about becoming a dealer back in middle school, but now I'm seriously considering it.
A used car dealer, right?
>>2459>A used car dealer, right?
or picrelated, maybe?>>2451
but srsly fren, best of luck>intense depression
know that feel and here's hoping you can find something to focus on that will bring some joy into yr life
Haha, I smiled just a little. Thanks friends. The situation's pretty hopeless, though. Can't send money to afford education in a foreign country, cant find a job that's not dead-end barely-scraping-by.
Shit was back in 2019, but /kind/ kept me going. Thanks.
Possibly Halloween related blogpost. Some real spooky shit happened. I got creeped out when I woke up this morning. The innermost pillow case inside one of my pillows, the one that holds the stuffing together, degraded over time and I failed to notice. I must have tossed and turned in my sleep, because I woke up to find a bunch of pillow stuffing all over myself and the bed. Wh… Wh… What is this? What is happening? Much confused. For a brief moment I felt like screaming like that scene in The Godfather with the horse head. It was like a stuffed animal committed seppuko while I was sleeping. After I came to my senses and figured out what probably happened, a thought occured… What if this happened to one of those dakimakura anons? Imagine waking up to find that your waifu is bleeding out and her guts are strewn all over the bed. It's been a weird morning and I think I might go back to bed and sleep in for a while, now that I've cleaned up the mess.
Rebuild my friend, put new guts and life into a cover.