No.1904
>>1897O_o so cutteee it looks like a goomba with a dress
>>1898Nice
>>1899Idk much about relationships but I think the fighting is romanticized in a lot of media. I don't think fighting is a good sign in a relationship. I mean I get occasional fights, but certainly not often. I think your gf/bf should be like a good friend, where you always are happy together
No.1910
I’m sorry in advance for the melodrama.
I just want to be a good person. I wish I could utter this in a beautiful way for you to read, I truly do, but I’m not a poet.
As a Christian, I’m tired of what happened to us. Death, evil, all of it, none of this was meant to be. Im tired of misery, hate, people ignoring the poor on the sidewalks, bullying kids on schools, women being led to prostitution just to feed themselves - not to mention the moral decadencies of our century.
And a little bit of that is on every heart. It hurts me, it scares me. If I can dedicate my life to something, I want it to be this. And I hope I can get closer to God while I’m at it.
No.1914
>>1910>And a little bit of that is on every heart. It hurts me, it scares me. If I can dedicate my life to something, I want it to be this. And I hope I can get closer to God while I’m at it.Being aware of this and actively trying to improve is, along with faith in Jesus Christ, all god ever asks for. In fact it's "the way" to follow Jesus. Many saints struggled like you do, and every christian should. I don't know what will do the trick for you, but prayer and lecture worked for me. Have you talked to a priest about that? I really recommend it, as it is their job to give advice to believers.
Speaking of prayer, praying the liturgy of the hours is a nice way to have a focus on god throughout the day. There are good apps around that make it easy for non-priests to pray along with the holy church around the globe.
https://catholicapptitude.org/liturgy-of-the-hours-apps/The rosary is nice, too. Ganbatte, my christian friend! And sorry for the straight up roman catholic overkill in this post if you're protestant/etc…
No.1915
>>1912You know, there was this girl in my Japanese classes that was really cute and nice, but I decided to not go for her because she had a piercing in her tongue and a nosering.
Plus her social media having what I considered very slutty images (was of the goth kind).
She was also very into me in the beginning, but I just saw her as a friend first. I wonder what would things have ended up like if we had anything
No.1916
I absentmindedly agreed to work an extra few hours today. An already long day was extended 3 hours. Stopped by the Asian grocery on the way home because I passed it while it was open for once. Was hoping to try non-American Yakult, but they didn't have any. Bought beer instead. The lady at the register said I looked really young for my age.
No.1917
>>1914No worries friend! I’m not sure what I am myself, I’m contemplating becoming Catholic, however. It’s hard to have spiritual disciplines with my mental health, but to me I used to be close to God through apologetics, and now it’s through prayer, (mainly spiritual) readings and lectures too. Thank you for the link and for the words!
No.1918
>>1917As a catholic, I would love to welcome you in the holy catholic church that truly dates back to apostle Pete! It's sad that the church split up in the first place, reunification is a must imo. It's rare to talk to practicing christians on imageboards and i'm very happy to got to meet you, friend. And for the mental health thing, I can say that faith really helped me in times of severe depression (knowing that you're loved like a son and always will be forgiven no matter what. The sacrament of confession is mighty! Knowing that God and all the saints are waiting for you and happy to forgive you is really comforting).
Discipline… Yeah, i skip prayers a lot. But that's okay, see, even feeling bad about not having prayed/read the bible etc is still being close to god, since you think of him. We're just human and we do human things. I am an awful sinner, too. Don't give yourself a hard time. As long as you try to be a better person, it's nothing that divides you from god… At least that is what i think about it.
Book recommendation in the picture, it is the only english prayer book i own (Posting from germany). Found out it is kinda popular so maybe you can profit from it somehow.
It seems to be around as a pdf too if you prefer to screen read.
Have a /kind/ day!
No.1921
>>1917included you in my prayers, friend. prayed the vesper and added you to the intercessions. Wishing you just the best and a deep connection to the holy spirit! <3
No.1926
>>1918>>1921Thank you so much you two! It warms my heart to be in communion with people in such an unexpected way. I’ll pray for you two too!
No.1945
>>1917As an ex-christian, I am going to warn you (and I've learned this the hard way) that the church will not tell you everything about who and what they are. Unfortunately, these are things even most of their members are kept in the dark about…
Things like official doctrine promoting the hatred of Jews, their alliance and endorsement of fascism, and defending and covering up crimes of priests sexually abusing children (they apparently didn't think it was important for their members to know these people were preying on their children).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuGjcCByVyc No.1946
>>1910>but I’m not a poet. I personally think all people in the world are born poets.
No.1961
>>1956I ran into so many problems running Windows 10 on 3 separate devices, that I want to go back to using Linux. But the problem is that I don't want to deal with debugging 3rd party programs just to use Windows only programs that I like
No.1962
>>1961I think the VM approach is the best one.
I plan on upgrading my computer and then just running everything on VMs on top of a small linux hypervisor.
No.1972
>>1945>As an ex-christianWhat have you become? One can't be un-baptized.
No.1976
>>1972Not him, but I'd consider myself an ex-christian as well. I was baptized when I was a lad too young to think for myself, and shortly after I stopped attending the weekly echo chamber for reasons outside of my control I stopped believing.
No.1979
>>1976>was baptizedSo you're technically still a Christian. A non believing Christian, but the sacrament of baptism marked you as one of God's people. Not, that it affects you in your everyday life, but still. Most ppl nowadays live the way you do. Are you a catholic? If so, you might want to read the catechism. Especially the chapters about the sacraments.
That was my last post arguing religious stuff, this board isn't the right place for such things imho and I don't want to offend anyone.
No.1989
>>1976Same, except my family's church attendance was spotty for most of my life and I don't think I was ever baptized. I always had doubts about my beliefs and actually ended up becoming a rapture-anticipating Young Earth Creationist as a teenager to try and hold onto them. I thought I was going to go to hell if I gave up religion, and once I didn't believe in a permanent hell anymore I dropped it like a hot potato (although not without feeling depressed and absolutely miserable for a while). I don't know why, but I've actually spent more time learning about the Bible now than I did when I believed it was divinely inspired. Maybe I'm just looking for closure on some level.
I've heard if you go to certain countries you could be considered a Christian whether or not you actually believe based on your ethnic/cultural background.
No.1995
My internet connection keeps failing. Come on, ISP… do your job! ;_;
No.1996
>>1994Get a rice cooker anon. I don't see the point of cooking rice with pot where else it's a lot easier to cook them with rice cooker.
No.1998
>>1996Had a few rice cookers before, but the only advantage is that you can forget about it running. I even steam veggies right on top of the rice in a regular pot. Doesn't make a difference to those inserts many rice cookers have… it's easy to cook rice in a pot. 1 cup of rice and two cups of water, then heat it until it boils. When it's boiling, turn off the stove. (What I forgot today.)
No.2098
>>2096i dont like winter because it is cold i dont like summer because im semi-allergic to sun. i dont like fall because it is depressing. i like spring
No.2099
>>2096TRUST ME
U DO NOT WANT SUMMER
SUMMER BAD
BAD BAD BAD
BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!
33-37ºC TEMPS ARE BAD
BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD
snow… good!
SUMMER… BAD!
>>2098How the fuck are you allergic to the sun?
No.2101
>>2099well basically it hurts my skin. i dont feel it is like heat but rather, i feel like something pierces my skin. but since im "semi"-allergic i dont feel that much of pain. Also i get sunburns easily
No.2106
>>2096Same. Late spring and summer are the only times of the year I like.
No.2113
>>2098Spring is nice too.
>>2099I rather have 30something degrees than -something degrees. I love the sun.
My sister has Lupus and is therefore highly allergic to the sun, perhaps our kind friend has something similar.
>>2106Early fall is also pleasant where I live. Overall it is late spring until early fall for me.
No.2122
Internet connection restored. Like 12 hours disconnected… the horror! I'm so happy to be back!! ^__^
No.2126
>>2122Yay! DTs are a bitch. Now, go outside and feed some birbs to celebrate!!
No.2132
>>2130Heh, nice. Thanks for the video Friend. Sauce?
I personally think I would find that task pretty nerve-wracking. I'd be contantly worried I'd FUBAR something and destroy some priceless heritage haha. :)
No.2133
>>2132https://youtube.com/watch?v=NZtmXFgeWq0Personally I don't think I would be that nervous if I tried, but I'd likely get a 50 million dollar debt day one.
No.2139
>>2126No need to go outside for this! Got a very well frequented bird feeder on my window. They love (crushed) peanuts! <3
No.2145
>>2089>>2096I live in the South Eastern US. Summer is hot and humid, Fall and Spring are cold and windy in the mornings and hot and humid in the afternoons, Winter is cold and windy. It's so humid here people from Australia complain about how hot it is, and so windy that people from Canada complain about how cold it is. I hate the weather
No.2150
>>1899well, a romantic relationship is still a contract between two humans, and humans fight. humans need to fight to have a genuine connection, if you don't argue with someone then are you really connected to them? think about it that way anon
No.2169
>>2145i dont see a change in weather much where i live (socal)
No.2249
>>2158
I ended up deleting my Facebook account years ago without warning anyone. I sometimes wonder if it was really the right thing to do without warning anyone, but I'm getting on fine without them.
No.2253
>>2252
Yeah, I don't regret deleting at all. I didn't see any reason to keep going with it when there were better things I could be doing.
No.2255
>>2252
clever pic, thanks
No.2261
I saw a squirrel from my window. It climbed up to the top of a pine tree, where the cones are, and then started carrying small branches that it chew off up there. It looked like they fell down, and then the squirrel started getting twigs from the walnut tree. I've got a good look of it jumping around in the trees, it's adorable. But after a while it gave up and now it seems to be repeating the same thing on another, taller pine tree that I can't see that well.
I wonder if it is building a lair, and why it gave up on the first tree. It looked like it had trouble finding good materials, could that be the reason?
No.2262
>>2261I had a similar experience last year. Just outside my bedroom window, a squirrel was building a nest on a tree branch. Throughout the spring, I'd peek out the window and get to check out what the squirrel was up to. Eventually the tree leafed out fully and I lost the view. It was nice while it lasted.
No.2268
I went out for a walk the other night and saw something cool. The "lake" I usually pass by was covered in a layer of fog, since it dropped something ridiculous like 40 degrees. It gave it a ghostly glow. It was really nice to look at.
No.2278
>>2262That sounds wonderful! I had a blackbird nest two years ago that I could see from my window. It was behind the trunk of the tree so I couldn't exactly see into it, but I could see the bird brooding on it. But the nest failed for some reason because one day the birds just disappeared.
No.2295
>>2278My neighbourhood is filled with wild birds due to a former bird colletor or breeder accidentally freeing them. 3 or 4 different breeds it seems tho the only one that i can name are the mina's. Tho sadly no crows or ravens. It'd be pretty cool to have one like pic related
Anyways back in the day my 2 main Internet hobbies use to be in a bad place. I wasn't a very good roleplayer (very inconsistent with my characters) and wasn't a very good battle boarder (tended to forefit a lot in the reddit debate tournaments).
But not just i have become a better roleplayer and battle boarder (fixed both issues along with general improvement.) But I'm improving a lot personally as well. Life is pretty good both in my personal relationships and my hobbies as well. Of course it ain't perfect but nothing is. I know life is a series of ups and downs for most people so I'm enjoying this time while i can.
Hopefully you all enjoy your days today.
No.2303
>>2295>crowsBleeagh! Can't stand them. >:P
>ravensAwesome! Did you know they are the most intelligent species on Earth, apart from homo sapiens sapiens? May you have a mating pair bless your area friend.
No.2310
>>2308It could be a lot better if enough people cared. Everyone should help their local birds if they can.
No.2311
>>2148Different kind of tits mostly. A bluetit couple for sure, a great tit couple/group and on some days I spot a redbreast. Sorry for the late answer, friend.
No.2352
>>2348You have a friend in me. We might never meet, but we can still care! <3
No.2359
>>2348i can relate to your post and live like a hermit for similar reasons. wishing that you can find peace with your situation and look towards the future with some degree of optimism.
No.2374
>>2372Fellow sagebro, we both find ourselves in the same quest.
I personally did some research and something that may help would be to go to D&D events. I personally wanna crack the shell of solitude and start "dating", but I find myself more confident in talking to people IRL than in dating apps.
Also, don't mind events with your interests in your area, chances are even if it's just a regular con at the start, there may be a party afterwards. I got invited to one but because I was socially inept I missed the opportunity.
Also, don't be shy of talking to women if there is a chance. There might be a moment where you may come across as weird, but eventually you'll become more resilient and talking to someone you never seen before will become much more easy.
I trust you- WE can get BOTH our happy endings
No.2379
>>2372I recently realized my preferences are skinny girls with almost no meat. Girls with a bit of meat
or muscle are hot, but nothing fills me with the desire to protect like an awkward thin girl with no breasts. My tastes are diverse enough that I could go for just about anything, but that's what I would consider perfect.
>In the end, don't most single women have a long line of suitors? As a rule of thumb if she's female there are going to be multiple guys going after her. My current plan is to just ask her out within like a week if I happen upon a girl that I get feelings for, and that's the only suggestion I have.
>>2374I've never liked the idea of dating apps either, doesn't feel like you would be able to get to know them as well as you would if you were talking in person. Too bad none of my interests get me in contact with women, and to add insult to injury all I meet are married men.
Maybe I should just bite the bullet and go to an anime con, though I don't feel like that's the right choice either.
No.2383
>>2379I also thought about anime conventions, wouldn't many girls already be arriving and hanging out in groups? Would be kind of akward for me who would be coming alone to find new friendships, although it depends more on how social you are and your age I guess? It surely does sound like a better choice than online dating, or even tinder where people are reduced to numbers.
Working at a Comic-Shop or Gamestop could work, or joining hobby clubs, I also heard of a few MMOGA love-stories, but again even for that I would be too introvert to even start conversations with strangers, if you post on image-boards regularly this shouldn't be a problem, you can do this, good luck!
No.2432
>>2379>>2383In my experience, going to an anime con didn't help, but your experience may be different
Last year at work I found a girl I got interested in, but I wasn't sure if she were interested or what I should do. I should've probably asked if she was available, as in single. I made the mistake of asking her for her phone number and she was like "no why?". Later I met another girl who looked a bit of a wreck, but she asked me if I was available for a relationship. I should've given that one my number, might have at least made a good friend but I just said I wasn't sure. I'm learning from these mistakes and maybe this also helps someone else
No.2434
I'm off to bed.
Good night, friends.
No.2440
I over did it a bit at work last night. I'm pretty sore tonight. I opted to do a hard job twice as long as I normally would have to. I just wanted some difficulty to make things interesting.
Anyhow, it just means it'll be easier next time I decide to do something stupid like that.
No.2444
>>2372>I realized lately that my preferences in women would be closer to girls with extra (but not too much) weight and nerdy interests.I've found that I'm getting pickier and pickier as time goes on. I'm really only into well-built blondes nowadays. It's not that I'd necessarily turn other women down for a roll in the hay, but they wouldn't be my ideal.
No.2454
>>2453I haven't really baked cookies, though I did cook some other nice things.
It's just that maybe chocolate destroys my gut? I can eat a whole pack of cookies in one go but if there's chocolate involved I may need more tries.
But I'm sure there is something else besides that
No.2455
>>2454Perhaps you're practising an addictive habit? I think you should feel bad about it. Also, don't underestimate the amount of sugar inside those cookies.
No.2622
I got invited to my friend's birthday party earlier today, but I volunteered to work tonight so I couldn't go.
I don't really mind, since he's the only one in that friend group I bothered to keep up with. I'm so far removed these days that I'd just feel out of place and probably wouldn't have a good time.
No.2628
>>2625> due to the pollen of an invasive speciesA-alien species that poisons you!?
>I'd rather cull thoseGood idea, friend. Stand your ground!
No.2678
>>2674I laid down for what must have been several hours last night before I could fall asleep. I eventually got up and read some comic strips, but I don't know how much that helped.
No.2681
I worked an extra half of a shift yesterday. Not sure why I bothered volunteering, but man I'm tired today. Maybe I'll buy something nice with my extra money.
No.2723
>2721
try out domestic terrorism
make a stink bomb from protein powder/eggs and vinegar
then sneak a solution through their door with a syringe
it may help
or may not
but revenge will put your mind at ease
No.2733
Hard days are almost over. Once this month ends, work will slow down and I'll be able to better enjoy things.
No.2735
>>2725Acoustic foam on the walls of a room is for reducing echo, so sounds *inside* the room are quieter. If you want more insulation from outside noise, you can use anything, like a blanket, it'll be cheaper.
No.2737
>>2721Sorry to hear you have to deal with that. I also struggle with dealing with noise pollution. I once lived in a place, that I was unable to alter, where my only recourse was to move a fully stocked bookcase against the offending wall. It helped a little bit, but that was just a temporary measure and I've since moved on.
>>2725>spiky foam panels?Maybe decorate your place like an old school Russian home with wall carpets? Maybe impractical, but it might even be possible to mount some insulation panels so that they're hidden beneath the carpet.
No.2741
>>2737>wall carpetsNaah.. i'd rather use emergency blankets and turn my living room into a space station/
schizo cave.
No.2840
I took a fun photo today, but I think I can take it much better if I set up for it.
No.2841
>>2840>fun photosounds great! what did you take a picture of? I'm curious! Mind posting it? Even if you think it's not perfect i bet it's charming. ^__^
No.2842
>>2841>what did you take a picture of?I took a photo of two semi-related figures positioned in a funny way.
>Mind posting it? Even if you think it's not perfect i bet it's charming.Photo is alright, I just think the lighting could be a lot better. I'd like to do a retake maybe outside or in a room with natural light. I won't post it right now because it is bedtime and I don't yet know the best way to get a photo from my camera to my PC.
No.2844
>>2842>it is bedtimeokay, sweet dreams then! <3
No.3250
>>3235It's always nice to be appreciated Friend! GG.
No.3251
>>3142>I've been cleaning today, and what a pain it has beenFeeling you, friend. Been camping weeks ago and still live out of the bag as well as the half folded pop up tent blocking half the kitchen because I was too lazy/unable to Fold it back into it's tiny tiny bag yet. Laundry is piling up in the bathroom and I'm afraid it's time to force myself to do something about it soon. Why must everything be so hard? ;_;
But enough whining,. - I'm proud of you. That's what I wanted to say. <3
No.3252
>>3142>>3251And where do you get rid of such a big amount of trash? I need to know! Just in case…
No.3267
I kind of want to make a faux chapter of some 4koma I read. In MS paint. I have the basic idea floating around my head but I'd have to get around to looking into how to do it, if I ever do.
No.3271
Recently i got my life pretty much in order.
I have good relationships with my friends and family.
I finally followed one of those quests on space battles to completion for the 1st time (the quest master was a good writer).
I wrote some fan fictions i actually enjoyed writing.
I stopped eating fast food for the sake of it since i got tired of most fast food restaurants.
I'm hanging out with people more.
The rpg groups I'm in online are good at the moment.
I trimmed my youtube feed to only the quality channels.
I'm learning a lot about myself and the people around me.
I have 2 different potential careers ahead of me.
I'm even self publishing a pamphlet. Nothing important or life changing or even high quality but i can get "write something that get's published" out of my bucket list.
The only goals i have left to complete are 1 be in a rpg campaign that actually finishes (which one of the rpg groups I'm in is actually close to achieving) and 2 get laid.
After that I'm not sure what I'll do. There's not much left for me to accomplish. At that point i think I'll just be living for 1 my friends and family 2 to experience good works of fiction 3 to rp 4 to write fan fics and 5 drink pepsi because I'm addicted to that shit.
So tldr I'm close to achieving everything i ever wanted and now just seek to live life to the fullest.
I'm so glad i made it this far.
No.3272
>>3252Well, in the US, a lot of places have a public dump where they'll handle your trash. You just have to take it there when it's open. Of course, my mom takes care of that part for me…
Still need to finish up, but I've been in a bit of funk since then. Just trying to be less messy until I get a bit more motivation.
No.3274
>>3272Thanks for the reply, friend!
Public dump is like 3 miles from my cave. Not an option for me. I'll just stick with jamming one extra bag into the trash cans of our house week by week. No complaints about this yet so I guess it's okay for the neighbors and the landlord.
No.3277
>>3272>>3274>Of course, my mom takes care of that part for me…Yeah, my parents offered me to do this many times but I'm too ashamed to take this offer and they have enough to do handling the grandmas and their own stuff. Getting old sucks. I sometimes regret that I survived the stroke I had in my 20s caiuse a dead son might have been easier than a mentally crippled one that is unable to live a "normal" life in the long term. Thank god I could get rid of the spasticity with rehab and my body functions almost normally. Would have been nicer if the stroke fried the depressed and anxious part of my brain instead of the ones i actually needed, but that's life, right?
No.3304
Got very confused at the big asian market but I think I did actually buy kombu correctly. All I need now are some bonito flakes and I can make a real dashi for my miso soup.
>>3142That's odd. Last month I also did some thorough spring cleaning and then played some 2hu afterwards, but EoSD not IN. Stages 3 and 4 are so good in IN, maybe I should give it a go this weekend.
>>3235Very nice!
No.3308
Been thinking about trying to learn an instrument again. This time trying guitar again or maybe bass. Now that I can afford learning materials instead of having to use youtube or other annoying but free things, I'll do better.
It'd be really fun to be able to play music, and I could pose my social problems as being a deep artistic sort.
No.3311
The pine tree outside my window is growing new cones and they are cute little and pink!
No.3315
I made a reply to a thread earlier this week. But, I cannot find it on said thread. That either means I may have replied to the wrong thread. The prospect of this terrifies me.
No.3326
I was reading a discussion about James Rolfe, looked at the clock, and noticed
it was 5:40.
>>3308Go for it if the passion is there. I got a guitar when I was a teenager but immediately gave up when I didn't have the determination to actually learn it. It wasn't until many years later that I actually had the discipline to learn how to actually play it. I'm not a good guitarist, but I can at least play some chords now.
>>3311I like pine cones but hate pine trees.
No.3329
>>3326I like pine trees they smell nice
No.3332
>>3308Definitely get a teacher as per
>>3328. If you live near a university that teaches music they may have students there that give practice lessons, which are often very cheap. I don't think it's as likely with guitar, but I had to stop playing piano because my poor, self-taught technique was causing me physical pain, so it's definitely worth having someone there to give you immediate feedback when you're starting out.
No.3341
>>3339Same. I have ever growing list
s of things to draw, and on the rare occasions that I try drawing one of those things it never comes out right.
I can see that I'm improving, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to draw what I want to draw.
No.3360
I've been in the process of ordering a niche custom made product, and it has been kind of a pain. Having to communicate the particulars to a non-english speaking vendor makes it kind of difficult to be certain about if what is said will actually get across. That goes both ways I would assume.
I'm very excited for it though.
No.3361
>>3329I don't even like the smell.
>>3334I find them ugly to look at. I also moved from a place as a kid that didn't have naturally occurring ones to an area that does (although people still do grow species that are outside of their natural range). Maybe the fact that I don't like the place has something to do with it, but I find them pretty hideous for whatever reason. The only time I really like them outside of wintertime (when they're full of snow) is when you see lush green forests of endless pines. Some of my least favorite landscapes in the U.S. are the dry brown ones that a lot of Western states have that are sparsely dotted with haggard-looking pines.
I strongly prefer deciduous trees.
No.3364
It's feeling more and more like there's no reason for me to be on the internet. Every website I visit is uninteresting or full of people who hate me and themselves. I need to find a hobby in the real world that's as easy as reading altchans.
No.3367
>>3364>Every website I visit is uninteresting or full of people who hate me and themselvesBut you keep visiting /kind/, r-right friend?
No.3375
My mom was talking about Korea today using heavy stereotyping and comparing it to Japan which she considers far superior.
It gave me a laugh, but I seriously hope she doesn't go off on a tangent about Koreans being savages compared to glorious Nippon…
No.3466
>>3463>It's too unkind to post, but I just want someone to know that dream existed.Sometimes on a very rare occasion I will dream about having fun doing things you shouldn't do.
Oh well, it's only a dream(っ˘з(˘⌣˘ ) ♡
No.3467
>>3466I wasn't exactly doing bad things intentionally.
I was in a bad situation and that was undesirable, but the people I was with are what made it a good dream.
No.3471
>>3470Welcome, friend! <3
No.3472
>>3470Thanks for posting.
No.3477
I am far better socially than I had been when I was younger. I realized that a few rules govern the social world and that they aren't as bad as I thought. Things just go in an orderly manner, you cannot just jump into romance, it's like trying to unlock a technology further on the tech tree without having the necessary requirements.
You don't need to have romantic relationships immediately to feel better. I knew that for a long time, but I feel like many people still don't. You need friends first and foremost. And if you have friends, everything else becomes easier.
You need to first establish any relationships, before you get into depeer ones. And if you don't feel welcome in some group, you just quit and find another that appreciates you.
No.3494
>>3491I thought it was quite adorable. I had to screenshot it
No.3498
Oh wow, this place is still kicking? I don't think I've visited /kind/ since 2016, and when I went to briefly revisit the one on 8chan in like 2020, it was dead and buried. Bunch of migrations between sites I guess, I'm shocked I found this place at all.
Anywho, I've had immense mental health issues that have sort of compounded together to make my life difficult, and it's been like this for years. I've chosen an elementary school related occupation because for whatever reason my autism makes me work well with children especially for some reason. As I've grown older I've realized I'm a pretty physically affectionate person, specifically for school aged girls, little sister I never had kind of feelings I guess. This has exclusively manifested in acceptable times and places, family friends, neighbors and stuff, but its made me feel horrible and upset, and I'm not sure why. I have no reason to feel the way I do, since I'm not doing anything inappropriate nor do I desire anything indecent or inappropriate but I've repressed it for so long and I've never really thought on why.
I guess I feel extremely worried being a man who has these feelings makes it more likely people will assume I'm a pedophile, even though every time the scenario happens no one ever does. I feel like I should be actively seeking out a girlfriend or wife, and the fact I feel like the affection and relationships I've had with children have far outweighed anything romantic or sexual is strange and people would find it creepy. Its not that I don't want a gf or whatever, but my spergy nature has gradually made me comfortable with stopping the effort entirely. And I look so young, most girls I attract are in high school or close to that anyway, which is a uniquely difficult challenge as is, even though that might be strange to say, having girls attracted to you being a problem.
Probably a massive TL:DR, but I've been engulfed in this for close to 5 years or so, among other issues, and it's kinda just built up. This is the only place I'd feel comfortable sharing this sort of thing anyway.
No.3504
>>3498I guess your reasoning was why I never pursued a carreer in that field, I had younger siblings I took care of a long time ago, which was why I did a few sidejobs in that field. A former friend back then made lowkey comments about me liking kids more than I should, though that said more about him than me. So I wouldn't worry too much when you really like what you're doing, I guess going in that field comes still with a certain stigma sadly, I wish you the best and that you don't let it get to you as much as it got me
No.3510
Thinking about trying to get laid just to say I did. This time I'll force myself through the miserable nonsense beforehand.
I would like to honestly say that I tried and didn't care for it.
No.3511
>>3498Hello and welcome back, friend!
Unless you are overly physical in a groping way or trying to get into intimate private chats online with them I don't think you have anything to worry about unless you have a very strong irresistible urge. These fears are pretty normal, some normal men even have something of a more thought-focused OCD called Pedophile OCD where they fear that they might be a pedophile and not even know it and worry they will suddenly act on something they otherwise aren't thinking about. I think thoughts like this probably hit harder for those who work with kids knowing that some pedophiles do seek out jobs that surround them with kids. I get uncomfortable thoughts around younger girls sometimes, but I would never act on them. I don't want to be mean to any of them so it's a hard balancing act in not being too cold, but also not getting too close for comfort since kids and teenagers can very easily attach to you.
I don't think it's weird that you feel enjoyment around kids, it's fun watching people grow and learn and being somewhat of a mentor to them. They get really excited about things and almost always full of life. If you don't abuse your position to groom anyone or end up choosing underage porn as your drug of choice I think you'll probably be fine, but of course I don't know your conduct at your workplace. You said you don't desire anything indecent or inappropriate so I think you're going to be just fine, you've been fine all these years already, right?
Fight-o!
No.3514
>>3498Welcome home, friend. Yeah this board has moved like five times, but kindness and friendship are eternal, it would seem.
Feels awkward offering advice on a difficult topic like this. The optimist in me says that you shouldn't be worried as long as you're maintaining a proper distance.
No.3548
>>3504Yeah, it's honestly frustrating to me how female caretakers are considered so natural and female child predators are given such light and preferential treatment comparatively to men. Societal stigma and expectations towards these sort of issues is so bizarre and idiotic. Most of the worry and anxiety has come from me myself, but I've had minor incidents of people being weirded out by the my career choice before though. It isn't fun. Went away after awhile when I grew more confident in my decisions though.
>>3511Thanks man, and yeah, I've had personal struggles with Pedophilic OCD, and it can be extremely soul crushing, and OCD in general has had a really tight grip on my life in a way the general public wouldn't want to understand too deeply. OCD can overhaul pretty much everything in your life, and not in a haha cleanly neat freak kind of way. People don't get how mental illness can destroy your life if you don't know how to manage it properly, and that just makes it worse! I'm speaking the obvious I guess, but having to deal with being a sperg with OCD and depression is a complicated business. It's like a complicated cocktail of stuff you can't talk about.
>>3514 I'm glad its just kind, because its really the only image board I can tolerate anymore, or the only one that isn't completely dead that is. And at this point I'm pretty comfortable with nothing actually happening to me, it's moreso just me being depressed with myself I guess. But you're generally right.
>>3518Thanks, anon. Every other specific image board I briefly found was either dead, constantly negative, or had people advertising(?) cp. It was getting legitimately infuriating. I kept seeing really disgusting stuff I didn't want to see or I'd find a legitimately good board that wasn't visited or updated for years. I gotta admit it helps actually talking about stuff, because I wouldn't talk about extremely personal stuff anywhere else.
No.3571
Just had my second 14 hour shift of the week. Thankfully, the week is over…
No.3576
>>3562So this was a formal goodbye?
That's rare.
Usually the course of action is to ghost.
No.3577
>>3571What do you plan to do with your weekend?
No.3578
>>3552You remind me of my first job interview where I was asked the same question.
Genuinely cannot remember the response, but I hope it was the same.
What would you do as a hermit?
No.3579
>>3577I don't really make plans for my weekends. Due to my living situation, it is difficult to do much of anything. Hard to leave the house, no space for physical projects, too noisy to focus on learning or much of anything.
>>3578>What would you do as a hermit?I don't think I'd do anything in particular. It's mostly the freedom from societies expectations that would make me want to be a hermit. I'm tired of playing this game that I just don't understand.
No.3585
So i recently quit roleplaying. This is the 3rd major hobby i dropped. I use to big a big video game fan, a big pro wrestling fan, and table top rpgs fan. Now i have lost interest in all 3. The only major hobbies i kept are reading and watching youtube. So I'm planning on collecting knifes as a new hobby. I like how knifes feel in my hands and i just think they are cool.
Also can i just say I'm jealous of solo roleplayers. They have a incredibly cheap hobby that's hyper convenient. No need for others to participate and they don't have any restrictions on what they can play. And all they need to pay for are rpg systems, pen, paper, and dice. Lucky guys. Shame i can't get into it.
Anyways I'm hoping collecting knifes are gonna be a fun hobby.
No.3589
>>3587I usually only eat frozen pizza because it's cheaper, but yeah that's sad.
No.3590
>>3585Why did you quit roleplaying?
No.3594
>>3576Yes, I even thanked them for still keeping up with me. I really appreciated the friendship.
>Usually the course of action is to ghost.That usually happens when the other person hurts you or you realize said person was using you. My friend wasn't like that. There were opportunities to accompany them to festivals and events but I always declined saying im busy despite really wanting to go. We eventually drifted apart due to me loathing where im at right now. My stomach was hurting constantly but I am emotionally coming to terms with the decision I made day by day.
No.3620
>>3594Well, if it makes you feel any better, I think you made the right choice.
There's no point to a friendship if you find yourself in the same holes and in the same fear and/or loathing.
It's only up from here.
No.3630
>>3590I just stopped enjoying it. Simple as that. Btw knife collecting wasn't that interesting. But i did end up liking true crine podcasts.
No.3632
I was zoning out earlier, as I do at work. I was thinking about what-if scenarios involving tsukumogami and also that I need new shoes soon because mine have holes in the soles.
No.3659
>>3654Welcome Friend glad you found /kind/! Yes, you're right about /late/, sadly. Fortunately, they have a new home on Anoncafe, as Anon mentioned. Please keep us up to date on your new job. Good luck!
No.3660
There's finally some rain coming in. Going to take it easy today and just listen to the rain.
>>3654Welcome to /kind/!
No.3663
>>3660It's raining here too but I want to go for a walk!
No.3701
My boss saw my anime-style character keychain the other day. He asked me about it when I came into work today.
I was, as always, rather avoidant with the question. I prefer to keep a distance from others, and keep a rather plain appearance. This time, however, that was not the case. the character in question was a mascot for a dakimakura company…
Fortunately, my boss apparently likes anime to some extent, he even talked about how he was going to Japan soon and would be staying in Akiba for a day. I still made a big mistake, but not a critical one.
No.3707
I went to the gym today and had a great session with a buddy of mine! Took some kratom after I got home, now I am chilling. Hope your guys days are going alright!
>>3659>Fortunately, they have a new home on AnoncafeI see!! Thanks for helping me out! Im gonna check it out!
>>3660>>3662Thank you friends for the warm welcome!! :)
No.3709
>>3701I agree about keeping things close.
You don't want to soil your interests by letting them interlace with the wrong people, that's for sure.
But now it's time for you to weasel your way into going to Japan with him.
No.3710
>>3707>Took some kratomI swore this was an intense drug people took or something, is it a casual drug instead?
No.3719
>>3710Nah Kratom is not really an intense drug. It is quite subtle. It is an atypical opioid and for a first timer without opioid experience it can be quite intese but only for the first times. After that it gives you a very nice warm euphoria and mood boost. Kratom is to heroin what coffee is to meth, I guess that would be a good comparison. You still get dependant on it tho with withdrawals and all that jazz, so be cautious!
>>3717 I would disaggree with the notion that Kratom is scary or not researched. I mean it is a widely common plant in East Asia where many people harvest and use it. It is just kinda uncommon here in the west. It also doesnt kill you, not possible to overdose on kratom alone. Its preddy chill.
Speaking of Kratom, I just drank my evening cup and now gonna listen to some lofi, play some chess while my food is on the way! It is Fathersday here for me rn so I wish everyone and their dads on here a happy fathers day! :-)
No.3730
>>3729>Yeah, I think this is a good idea…Go for it, traveller! This could actually work out pretty well.
No.3731
>>3730If I get it sorted out, I could go to Winter Comiket (Summer Comiket too, but it doesn't line up with my other, stronger wants so maybe not) and buy stuff not easily found elsewhere.
I'd rather not do this too much, despite it being a big thing as Comiket isn't what it once was (for me), and I'd rather spend most of my time somewhere than than Tokyo. I do want to help others experience what they otherwise couldn't.
After this year, I would like to expand my knowledge in the language so that I can translate things I like for those that can't.
Maybe I'll spend all my money in my life on Japanese media, and live with my mom forever. I think that's fine. More value will come from my efforts to spread it to those that don't know any practical Japanese, like me now.
No.3755
>>3729How often have you been to Japan??
No.3765
>>3729>>3731I second
>>3730I want to follow the Autobacs Super GT series for one year. I don't have the money yet and theres a few things to sort out as well.
No.3841
I was looking at one of the robots at my job, and it's really neat to see it at work. The defined and perfect movements are pleasing to look at. Even if it does a simple job, it's really cool.
No.3869
>>3867Sounds cute. I really ought to go for a walk this weekend. Foxes should be out this time of year, and they are cute.
No.3875
I went for groceries and I realized I didn't bring enough money when I was checking out, and a man who was behind me realized it and gave me some money, enough to be able to buy the stuff. It's good that there still are /kind/ people out there.
No.3888
I've been working on getting my new computer running the way I want. I'm hoping it'll go well and that I can adjust reasonably well.
No.3911
I am an immortal soul waiting for the next serenade
I am the caged clown dancing volcanoes
I am finding it strange to be anything at all
Using first person generates discomfort
Weasel your way into another syntax as delivery is above all else
Wait for a long paragraph to wheel out the jet stairs, buckle up for the "land of dreams."
"Caution advised with such an ad-line!" he blathered before a wink
No.3947
Turns out that you feel less bad when you drink water.
No.3961
It has been a while since I've exerted myself to the point that I can no longer perform the task at hand.
It's a disappointing feeling.
No.3963
>>3961I did some body weight squats out of the blue last week and I couldn't move for two days afterwards.
No.3965
I’ve started on a weightlifting program 4x a week. I kinda fell off the wagon with fitness during covid when the gyms closed and haven’t quite gotten back into the swing of things until now. I’d like to drop some bodyfat and get /fit/ again asap. Wish me luck!
No.3966
>>3965You can make it Friend, do your best! :)
No.3970
Thinking about buying a laptop to watch teh animes in bed. Unfortunately most laptops are lame and ultra lightweight these days which goes against my wants and needs, and the heavy laptops are quite a bit beefier than I'm willing to pay for on what will be exclusively used as a glorified DVD player and probably VN machine.
Is a Blu-Ray drive really so much to ask for?
No.3972
>>3970Whats your price range, anon? Im pretty sure you can still find some relatively large laptops for low prices. They’re in more of a budget category, but maybe you don’t mind. Are you looking for one specifically with a bluray drive?
No.3973
>>3971I imagine he prefers the aspect of actually owning physical media and having a dedicated player for it. I personally don’t care either way, but I can understand the appeal.
No.3974
>>3970I know what you mean. I have a new computer case that I thought from the description would have room for my Blu-ray drive, but when I got it I saw it wouldn't fit. To me a disc drive is a necessary feature even if I don't use it very often.
No.3975
>>3974Tbf disks drives are barely used by most people anymore since most media is streamed at this point. I know I haven’t used a disk drive in about a decade, personally.
No.3976
>>3971Sure, I download most things, but if I see a physical copy of something that looks kind of neat but wouldn't normally think to watch, I'll usually pick it up. Sometimes it works out, other times it does not.
>>3972I found a good choice, I guess I was taken off guard by the cost of mobility. Or maybe just seeing the price of a complete computer in this case.
>>3974Yeah, I was kind of disappointed when it was difficult to find a case with a disc drive. It wasn't a priority at the time, but came to bite me in the ass later…
Fortunately you can just open the case I have and have a loose disc drive in a pinch.
>>3975This is true. I can understand why it is an uncommon thing, but I just found it odd that it is so difficult to find these extra options. Sure, most people don't need it, but there should still be a market to some extent. Think about all those unfortunate people that only have CD players in their car! Nobody is going to burn CDs for them in this day in age!
No.3978
>>3973>>3976Ah. I kinda get it, there surely must be some sovl and appeal to physical media. Personally, I would like to own some physical media too, but the problem is that it costs money, while digital is free (unless for some reason you choose to NOT pirate).
>>3977I do not stream anime, though. I rather torrent it.
Also, I do not think weebs generally look like the guy in that comic.
No.3979
>>3978>the problem is that it costs money, while digital is freeIt isn't an issue for me. I don't really expect anyone to go out and buy physical media, seeing as I primarily torrent as well, but as I said in my last post, it is just a way to get myself to watch stuff I wouldn't think to otherwise.
>Also, I do not think weebs generally look like the guy in that comic."Today's mixed-up weebs" certainly do a lot of the time. Well, where I live anyway.
No.3980
>>3975I mostly torrent things I want, but I buy hard copies of my favorite movies in the best quality I can get. I recently bought and ripped a game I really like from CD just so I have a copy that isn't on Steam because I couldn't find a download of it.
As easy and convenient as storing everything on a hard drive is, I think physical ownership is important. feel like people should try to have media they really like on hand when possible. It makes it harder for people to take them away from you or alter them in any way. Look at how people have been able to restore the Star Wars trilogy in 4K from collectors' film prints after the movies were edited and the original versions kept out of circulation.
No.3981
>>3978>generally look likeI'm not a fan of stereotyping anything really, but I especially hate that the word weeb has become an insult and meme pretty much everywhere online, ironically while anime has become more mainstream.
Being called Otaku was better, at least people who knew what it meant were part of the subculture, now everybody has a new word for something they can shit on without knowing anything more about that topic than a few jokes.
Let's take anything social conformity does not agree with and put it in a bad light, so we have something to laugh at and shame people who dare to do their own thing.
Guess I want to say that I think being weird is being great! And stereotyping is bad and makes us into zombies
No.3986
>>3981I think there is a difference between a weeb and an otaku.
As for what people call me, it doesn't make a difference.
No.3990
>>3982I wouldn't talk about my hobby in a self-deprecating way either, you don't see for example sport fans talk about themselves in the same way usually, but I see the psychological aspect of just not taking myself too seriously either I guess
No.3992
>>3978It's a joke. Kelly is the comic artist of The Onion.
>>3982I had a coworker once that described themselves as a weeb without any hint of irony.
No.4007
Today when I was outside, I saw a girl wearing something that looked like a school uniform, almost anime-like. A white dress shirt, and a green pleated skirt with a grid pattern.
School uniforms are uncommon in my country, even in private schools, so I wonder if that really was a uniform for her school, or if she was wearing something like that because she felt like it, or if it was some sort of cosplay.
Nevertheless, it was nice finally seeing a 3D female wearing cute clothes. I was getting reaaally tired of only seeing 3D females wearing masculine clothing (pants/jeans, etc).
…Am I a creep?
No.4010
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>>4007I don't think there's anything wrong with it, though many people would say otherwise nowadays.
I think the timeless popularity of animal videos shows that people just like seeing cute things. It's pleasant and it's soothing. And since cute girls are cute, it's nice seeing them.
No.4011
>>4007There’s nothing creepy about liking to see people where nice/cute things. It’s something I appreciate too. When I visited Japan for a few months I got used to seeing people put an effort into how they dress, and it was quite the shock returning to North America where no one seems to care how they look.
No.4014
>>4013
>(((…)))
Please don't /pol/-lute this place, friend.
No.4015
I don't understand how people can diet without working out. I need to do cardio to counter the calories I consume. I enjoy eating too much to resist.
>>3981>Guess I want to say that I think being weird is being great!It is but my aversion to not let it be known that I am an otaku comes from the fact that people who wouldn't associate with anime do now. A school classmate of mine who was a delinquent unironically has anime stickers in is car now. You can see it as old guard who is wary of newcomers.
>>3994I need to get back into the practice. Thanks for the reminder, friend.
No.4021
>>4011The Japanese have better options when it comes to clothes though.
>>4015Delinquent manga is great.
No.4027
I saw a couple in love yesterday. The girl was giving the guy the "I want to spend the rest of my life with you" look and body language.
It's nice that that sort of thing happens, but it made me a bit sad that I'll likely never experience it.