I’m hoping people will be kind and not try to start screaming like little babies wailing for their mother’s milk.
Right now, my biggest issue is a lack of motivation. I graduated from high school last year, but I completely failed at preparing for college, so that seems out of the question for now.
Don't get me wrong, I want to move out and sort of have my own life, but for now, there's not much pushing me to do so.
The next logical step would be to get a job, but I don't know what sort of job to look for. I'm thinking of getting a job as a janitor again, since it's pretty easy work and I get a good amount of autonomy. I just don't want to be a janitor somewhere with a lot of traffic.
>>1788>rants are inherently un/kind/
I have no problems and nothing is bothering me at the moment! I want to be able to write a rant in this comfy rant thread, but I don't have anything to rant about! I want to participate, but there isn't a thing getting on my nerves! Nada! Zilch! Nothing! Sure, others have the luxury of being bothered by stuff, but not me! I could complain, but who would listen? Here, read this list of my complaints. What? What's the matter? You've never seen a blank piece of paper before? Fine then, just crumple it up and throw it on the ground because I don't need it! Oh, I see you recycled it. Great! Way to go! The least you could have done was to have thrown it on the ground and littered, then I would have had something to be indignant about. Nope, not me. No reason to get my panties in a twist. I'm not even wearing any underwear! Couldn't get my panties in a twist if I tried. I'm just sitting here, staring straight ahead. The wind is blowing. The birds are chirping. Lovely birdsong. Look, there's a squirrel. He aint bothering anybody or anything! Nope, no complaints. Everythings copacetic. Just embracing the felt presence of the immediate moment and everything feels fine. Maybe I should be upset up some abstract ideological concern. Nah, can't do that. I don't have any ideology! I just have this moment. This pure clean and clear rant free moment.
Vent? Let it out? How do you deflate an empty balloon? Explain that to me. Pop that balloon if you can! I'm not swole up and about to pop off. I feel all calm and tranquil and peaceful despite the fact that I know someone somewhere is probably typing up a storm, pausing only to rub their hands together like a super villain would, because they're about to give it to 'em. They're about to type up a rant! They're about to type up a rant that will rant all over this rant forsaken world! Me, I haven't a clue. I'm completely empty headed and empty handed! Sitting here blankly staring at nothing going on. Nothing wrong! Looking here and looking there for problems. Look, there's that squirrel again. He's not empty handed! He found himself a little snack. I bet he could rant about how hard that nut is to crack! Must be nice for that squirrel. Foraging for a rant and he found one! The birds are still singing too. Not that obnoxious squawking that they sometimes do, but making pleasant sounds for a change. Is that how they rant? They just squeak and squawk and sing songs about how bad birds got it? They don't know the half of it, those birds. They don't how good they've got it. One of them is even doing that funny little head thing. Being all cute and care free! Well, good for them! Ranting away with their bird rants and looking comfy doing it. Wish I could be looking that comfy posting some rant in a comfy rant thread!
The Trump phenomenon is just due to ordinary people getting tired of being pushed around and hitting back against people who hate their guts. You can't play nice with people who want you gone. Trump (and his average supporter) also has nothing to do with the far right. He's basically a '90s Democrat.
It’s just both sides started screaming more and more as he got into power. The left started wailing, then the right, the left wailed louder and louder, and the right continued like it.
I don't think think it's very kind that it's entirely in character for DJT to have said people who gave up their lives for their country are "suckers" and "losers." He's done much to lower the level of public discourse - civilized language is just tone policing after all.
According to unnamed sources he did, anyway.
Regardless, he's said the same thing in regards to John McCain for being a POW. Even if the sources are questionable, it's not at all surprising to assume he did say as much.
I need to go shower but I don't feel like doing anything. Oh well. Bye bye friends
That there is a good artist you posted.
I think I'm gonna fail some of my classes. I used to be a good student, and so I was able to get into a good school with hard classes, but now I'm out of my depth and I don't know what to do. I need to ask for help, but I've had problems with doing that since I was a little kid. I used to be able to just put my nose to the grindstone and work, but I'm finding it harder and harder to do that, and I don't know why. I can still do well if a class is interesting, but so many of them are just boring or confusing, and I just don't know what to do. I was always "the smart kid" in my family, and I don't want to disappoint my parents, but I think I'm going to end up a failure.
I think you really need to fully appreciate how dire the situation is. I'm not so different from you, and I've always avoided getting help when I could. However this time, if you think you're going to fail, you're going to fail. Get help before that point.
Goddamn it anon, make the most of this opportunity because some people didn't have it. Do it for us.
As a failure six years removed from this situation, you need to act fast. Go to the counseling office/mental health center immediately. At the very least, you'll have the equivalent of a doctor's note.
I had high hopes for life, I'm very disappointed. I was and have always pretty much been seen as intelligent in my life, but now I'm chronically ill with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis and really the only thing that can make me happy is a sizeable amount of money to buy a place where I don't have to pay rent and can live off-grid in peace and quiet, and in this way the first prevents the last unless of course I try every single irregular way of making money possible until I finally get it right, because If I want what I want in life I know I'll have to find the energy and motivation despite my problems to do this. Most of my family are also ego scum so they wish to not understand this and so I don't care about them, they tire me.
I really don't like to talk about being sick, I don't like talking about these personal details, and I don't like sick people and I really hate all of this. I try to just pretend like nothing while having some respect for my disease.
I'm tired all the time and hate life, how could I not. The trash I have demotivates me and disables me. The only things that make it livable is my musical and other varied interests and the fact that I have plenty of time and things to derive enjoyment from.
I also like people, but I've found out I don't actually care about most people at all because I know how it is having a deeper connection to someone. And really, nothing can replace that to me, there have been many times where other people may connect with me but I do not at all since, I guess, my personality is a rare polarity to top it off, this has but not to my wishes hurted quite a few people because I simply don't reciprocate. So I have to search hard for new people IRL i actually connect with but again I do not really have the energy and so the drive to do so.
To make things worse I quite enjoy being alone. And I'm not depressed either because I know how that feels like, what I'm feeling is simply a direct rational consequence of the circumstances, It's difficult.
Always remember, in your dealings don't let anything or anyone fuck you over, because it really concerns your overall mental but especially physical health friends, do not forget this can be permanent, stress yourself too hard you may get fucked up for life so act fast, the faster you act the faster you're out of the danger zone. Sometimes however you, maybe like myself, may not appear to have had a choice in the matter. But invariably likely the chance is higher of dodging any of these bullet would have had you acted quicker.
Things are really a fight.
You need to learn how to be truly productive and teach yourself how to properly study. Easier said than done, I know. But, if you truly want to better yourself, it's the only solution. Try some of Cal Newport's books, if you want to improve on your habits.>>3758
Can't you get on disability and live in section-8/income housing?
Also, it sounds like you're having a terrible time. I suffered with a chronic illness in the past, and I was tired all of the time, but it was different from Myalgic Encephalomyelitis. Despite that, I can empathize with you just a bit. My family was also giving me a hard time with my illness, because physically, it didn't look like I was sick.
>Always remember, in your dealings don't let anything or anyone fuck you over, because it really concerns your overall mental but especially physical health friends, do not forget this can be permanent, stress yourself too hard you may get fucked up for life so act fast, the faster you act the faster you're out of the danger zone.
Did somebody hurt you in your life? Or was it multiple people?
I havew this exact same mentality. A toxic environment growing up really causes a strain on your worldview.
>>3758>I had high hopes for life, I'm very disappointed. I was and have always pretty much been seen as intelligent in my life, but now I'm chronically ill with Myalgic Encephalomyelitis and really the only thing that can make me happy is a sizeable amount of money to buy a place where I don't have to pay rent and can live off-grid in peace and quiet, and in this way the first prevents the last unless of course I try every single irregular way of making money possible until I finally get it right, because If I want what I want in life I know I'll have to find the energy and motivation despite my problems to do this.
I can relate. I don't know if the condition I'm dealing with is actually chronic fatigue or not, but I've long suspected it could be. I'm approaching ten years in the workforce, but I still haven't started working full-time yet since I'm constantly exhausted. I only recently learned to drive. It's really going to suck having to work more than I do now just to make ends meet.
I've dabbled with stay-at-home jobs over the years, but I've found no success on that front.>I also like people, but I've found out I don't actually care about most people at all because I know how it is having a deeper connection to someone. And really, nothing can replace that to me, there have been many times where other people may connect with me but I do not at all since, I guess, my personality is a rare polarity to top it off, this has but not to my wishes hurted quite a few people because I simply don't reciprocate. So I have to search hard for new people IRL i actually connect with but again I do not really have the energy and so the drive to do so.
Yeah. I run into a lot of friendly people, but there are very few I feel like I have much in common with. I only like spending time with my family anymore.
It's like there's a brick wall between me and everyone else, and I really dislike feeling this isolated. I feel like even if I were more normal that I couldn't get close enough to people. I hate being trapped in a prison of subjectivity and wish I could feel exactly what other people felt and see the world through their eyes.>To make things worse I quite enjoy being alone.
This almost sounds like I could've written this.
>To make things worse I quite enjoy being alone.
Really, I hate being alone, but people are such a disappointment; I think having them around makes me more miserable than not.
hate politics and politicnorms they ruin everything they touch from both sides including kind
Try adding them again. Get their side of the story and explain yourself. Apologize if you were actually in the wrong.
I hate people wanting conversations. Just leave me alone, I have nothing to say.